My name is Layne. I go by the pronouns they, them, and their, and I identify as trans- masculine. I am twenty eight years old. Identifying as trans-masculine is new for me, I’ve just recently discovered this part of myself. I was born in Orange County, California and I lived there until I was six years old. From there my family and I moved to Tucson, AZ where we lived until I was twelve and then moved one more time to Oldham County, KY. I am currently living in Durham, NC. I’ve noticed something different about myself since I was five. I noticed an attraction to women from a very early age. However, it wasn’t until I was twenty three years old that I pulled the word lesbian out of my throat. This way of identifying was the most natural identification I had at the time, but even that didn’t feel right.
Fast forward through five years of life happening, break ups, and growth, and here we are. Back in December of 2014 I started dating someone who identified as trans-masculine. I looked up the word to help further understand him. This word and its definition was enough to not only understand him but also myself. The definition of the word goes as follows: Trans-masculine is a term used to describe those who were assigned female at birth, but identify as more male than female. Trans-masculine is often used as a catch-all term for all people assigned female at birth who identify as masculine of center, including trans-men, but the adoption of the term as an identity is a matter of personal preference. Those who identify as trans-masculine, as opposed to simply as FTM or a man, trans or otherwise, often place themselves masculine of center- that is, they identify more closely with maleness than femaleness, and generally desire a physical appearance that reflects this identification, but do not identify as wholly male or as a man. This identity is similar to that of a demi-guy in that demi-guys often identify with maleness or masculinity, but only partially. It should be noted that trans-masculine is not a descriptor of gender expression but of identity. Trans-masculine people do not necessarily have to be stereotypically masculine in their interests or even presentation.
After reading this, everything about myself fell into place. I’m not on hormones yet. I have only ever been comfortable in masculine presentation so nothing has changed physically but I have a more in-depth understanding of myself and the Trans community as a whole. I am looking forward to the possibilities and the further exploration of who I am and who I am yet to become.
There is more to me aside from how I identify and where I have lived. I’ve been writing since the age of twelve. I am a poet and I am active in the slam community. For me, writing has always been an outlet for anything that was going wrong in my life. A notebook and a pen were two staples in my life that I could always turn to. I highly recommend that if you are going through something, write. I enjoy photography and could not live my life without music. I have been saved more than once by music and writing.
I am a creative person and a work of heart. I try my best every day to make someone else’s day better and leave the world a little better than I found it whenever possible. I hope someday, we can come to a point where everyone on this planet is simply, a human being. We are all in the same boat, fighting the same war.
I am looking forward to writing for Planet Transgender and I hope you enjoy what you read from me. This is going to be an exciting year and I hope you enjoy having me on board.