“For the first time, I know how my dad’s mother’s people felt when they were forced into walking the trail of tears,” Jessica Courtney wrote, “forced to leave their ancestral home to a new land in Oklahoma.” They are Choctaw. In 1830 they were the first tribe to be marched in the Trail of Tears.
I now know how they felt walking the Trail of Tears. We were treated as subhuman. We were treated like animals. Who treated us this way? The Christians. Why? Because we did not believe their ways. We did not want to live their lifestyle. They wanted our resources that we owned. They wanted our sacred land. They did it because they said we were different and they were a superior culture.”
“I am so proud to be a Trans-Texan. My mom’s family is from this wonderful state and has been since before the war for independence from Mexico. My family fought for the independence of Texas and with the Texas 2nd cavalry during the civil war.”
“But today I am confronted with walking a new Trail of Tears just as my ancestors did in 1830. They were forced to walk away from their home at gunpoint due to the laws that were passed. Now, I may also be forced to walk away from my land due to the laws my state is trying to pass.”
“This time we are dealing with the American Protestant evangelicals saying, you are not like us. You are different. You don’t believe as we do. We don’t want you in your land or around our children. We want your space for someone like us. You are subhuman. You are an animal.”
“I don’t want to leave the state that my mom’s family fought to create. I don’t want to walk a trail of tears like my dad’s family did.”
“I want to say that I am proud to be a transgender woman who is both Texan and Choctaw. I think of the stories I heard of the children of my tribe that had to make that walk and I can only think of the children in Texas today facing the same walk. The tears that you hear about were not from the men but from the women and children. They cried because they knew that they had no future. The women cried for they were scared for their children future. They cried over the graves of these children who died.”
“I have honestly considered de-transitioning.” Courtney wrote, “Not because I want to, but because I am scared. I am scared of what the government may do to me. I know that the odds of me surviving de-transition are slim. Ten years ago I came out to my family. I had a ton of bricks taken off of my shoulder by being honest with them and myself. I started my transition 3 years ago and I have been happy every since.”
“I don’t want to go back to the person I was ten years ago. I did not like this person. I was hateful and full of rage. I was always looking for ways to die without having to do it myself. I couldn’t have a living relationship with anyone. I had given up on love and happiness. Is this the life that these Christians think Christ wanted for me. Is this their idea of a healthy Christian life? Since I came out and admitted to myself who I am, and told my family, I am now closer to God than I have ever been before. I am no longer angry with God. I no longer think that He is sending me to hell for something that was not of my choosing. After all, He creating me this way. I no longer think that He made a mistake or was just being hateful to me. I have learned that He made me perfect as He wanted me to be. He created me after His image.”
These so called Christians would rather judge God’s creation than to love the diversity He creates. They are of the mind set that they know more than Him. They deny His love.
“One Trail of Tears is enough. No more tears from the families who have to bury a child because of the actions of a government. No more tears over the graves of the young children who have taken their own lives due to a hateful government.”
“Please share this. We have got to stop this modern day Trail of Tears. I have seen so many of my transgender sisters cry from fear of the future. Not because they are scared of not finding love, work, or family, but because of these ridiculous laws they are trying to pass. I have seen too many mothers of transgender children cry from the fear of what will happen to their child if this hate becomes law.”
Proud Choctaw Transgender Texan